Arlo Kalon 2.0
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I'm at the end of my rope. Twice now this draining fistula beside my belly button has dried up long enough for me to go on a liquid diet. After a week on liquids, I could begin a soft diet for a week and then I'd be home free to eat whatever I want. Problem is, each time around third day of liquid diet it has opened back up and started draining heavily again. I'm tired of this bag hanging off my gut that often leaks intestinal bile onto my clothing. Monday of next week I'm seeing a fistula specialist surgeon at a university hospital that has developed some new technique of closing off a fistula with a flap from surrounding muscle tissue. It will be my 17th major surgery and I don't bounce back from them like I did when I was younger. Plus, I am high risk for serious infection because my immune system is compromised. I've been prayed over by several old saints from a number of denominations but God doesn't seem to be listening. I'm about to side with Colin on the existence of God. I've been taught that nothing happens to me that doesn't pass by the Throne first. Also, I'm beginning to doubt Romans 8:28 about God works all things together for our good. I can't see anything good coming from this. I lost 7 months of iincome last year and am headed for more loss. I'm just tired of this whole fiasco... the end. Thanks for letting me vent.